A reverie of a few minutes, in which my thinking was focused on several things that I wanted but did not need, was suddenly interrupted by an anguished thought: “Oh, God, please forgive the shallowness of my concerns.” It was as if my Guardian Angel had grown sick of the silly distractions that were keeping me farther from God than I should be and had taken intellectual control for a brief, illuminating second.
Suddenly, there was a glimpse of all of a day’s thoughts, stretched out in a long line. The thoughts that were pleasing to God were like little lights in a long line of dim silliness. There were not a lot of bright lights in that long line of thoughts. And, there were dark thoughts, as well. Most of them were, thankfully, chased away.
Of the words spoken during the last week, most were concerned with the world. Some were focused on God and His desires.
I can say that there were no bad deeds, but there were few good ones. Picturing the long line of thoughts, words, and deeds that had occupied my mind, words, and body showed few, if any, signs of saintliness.
But, the sudden realization of the shallowness of most of my concerns was a spur that, at least during the writing of this, drove me from thinking about accumulating more of the things of creation and made me consider the Creator of those things.
